Tuesday, August 24, 2010

dating and courting

Wow summer is coming to a close! I've been home since Christmas and I feel like i've learned a lot. Friends have come and gone... Stefan and Tynja are married. Weird huh? Hannah and Thomas are leaving tomorrow. Today I went to lunch with them and George. It was pretty awesome. We went to Panera down at kent station. Then once we said our goodbyes to Thomas, Hannah and I went to the gluten free bakery off of 256th, i think.. right next to Kent Meridian High School. We ate some chocolate volcano cake and brought back chocolate cake for her family. After the bakery, we went to target and got some white t-shirts for her date tonight. Then we took cake back and hung out at her house. We hung out while she did some more packing and then went and hung out with her sisters.
So George brought up an interesting topic. He basically said that dating should go back to the days of original courting. Around Jane Austen's time. I'm not sure I really understand. I do like the old fashion style of dating where the guy does the asking and paying, that kind of stuff. We also talked about dating at school. Thomas had a good philosophy. If you're not interested in the guy and he asks you out, just say no. I think it's better to say if you think the guy likes you and you're not interested, then just say no.
Alright, so quick update on school. I'm working hard to figure out housing. I guess they still need my endorsement from a member of the stake presidency. I'm struggling though. I feel like I keep making mistakes. It feels like everytime they tell me to do something, I miss out on some piece of information that messes me out. It's pretty stressfull...
Um I turn twenty in four days. That'll be cool I guess. I don't know, it's just a birthday. What do you do?

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

By Small and Simple Things

"Preserve your memories
Seal them up well.
What you forget, you can never retell
But a journal that's kept fresh on the shelf
Will help someone through rough times
maybe even yourself!"
So I found this memory while going through some boxes
Dear Courtney,
Enclosed you will find your Eternal Perspective Certificate and Award. Congratulations! I am proud of YOU.
You will also find enclosed a list of qualities your fellow Mida Maids see in you. I hope you see all those and more when you look at yourself. I know I do when I look at you.
Always remember who you are. You are a daughter of Heavenly Father. He knows and loves you. You, Courtney Lambert, are important to Him. Never forget that.
You are a special, unique, and worthwhile individual. You are special because you are a child of God. You are unique because there is no one in the world exactly like you. You are worthwhile simply because you exist. Alwas see yourself as a daughter of God,
and treat yourself accordingly.

I was thinking as I was typing this letter that this could be a letter from Heavenly Father as well. Insert "You are My daughter. I know and love you. You are imporant to Me. Never Forget that."

This letter may be a small and simple thing to the person who wrote it, but it means so much to me. I'm sure the letters that my fellow mia maids and friends received meant just as much to them.

It's a testimony. I do know that Heavenly Father lives and loves me, but it will always be nice and much appreciated to hear others say it too.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

stawberry lemonade

When Life throws you lemons, make lemonade. A common phrase that most people have heard. I once heard that the lemonade won't taste good without sugar.
Things have been difficult lately. I haven't seen my sister since Christmas. My best friend and I haven't been close since he got back to Washington. Another friend is getting married so I won't get to see him much anymore. Another friend doesn't talk to me much since his girlfriend came around. My financial situation is not doing so well... my mom told me if I don't get financial aid for this fall, I can't go. She refuses to discuss any other option with me until we find out if i get financial aid. This is all stressful....
Here's the sugar to add to the lemons! My neice and nephew are wonderful. My best friend and I are still friends. My friend that is getting married has an amazing fiance. She's been staying with me for the past few months and I've really come to love her. Admissions let me back to school! Not to mention I don't have to go green river anymore! I'm dying to go back to BYU I.. I miss being there. As for my friend that doens't really talk to me anymore, I don't think that I really care.
This is definately one of those tough times in life for me, but I know it will be okay. It's going to take some time though. Some days are harder then others, like when someone I don't know makes fun of me and emberasses me but there's nothing i can do about it. I read this article, and in it there was a story where a woman said that feeling peace was a miracle. At least that's how I interpreted it anyways. Things will be okay. I can't see how, but i know they will be :)