Another semester is over. It was a good one, but i'm definately tired though. I studied a lot. My GPA was a 3.7 for the semester. That's a big accomplishment for me. My roommates were pretty great. Two of them were sisters from Arizona. There names were Marie and Cherie. Marie is a few months older then me. She's getting ready for her mission. Natalie was the roommate that shared a room with me. It was her first semester. She was overwhelmed with her feeling for a boy from her home town, and so she missed out on a lot of college life. She's pretty great though.
Now i'm home again. I've been home for a little bit over a week. I spent the first week sleeping on an air mattress in the bonus room. The only thing I didn't really enjoy is that Chris and Audrey's dog would come onto the air mattress and wake me up most mornings. She's a sweet dog, i'm just not used to being woken up with such excitement. Now i'm back in my own bed thankfully. I have yet to unpack though. I've procrastinated quite a bit. I blame being sick.
I'm definately excited to be home, I just really need to find a job!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
Book Of Remembrance
Okay so for my family history class, we were asked to make a book of remembrance. So I did! So if you read the posts under this one, that's what it's about.
My View of Life
Life is fantastic. That's all there is to it. I was once on a date with a friend, and he asked me what I thought of life. I told him that I think life is worth living. I say live every day to the fullest. Live every day as if it were your last. I regret that I didn't have the oppurtunity to know more about the lives of my family members that have passed away already. Who they are influenced indirectly who I am today. Now that i'm older and appreciate more things, I absolutely love hearing stories from my mother about my grandma. When our family gets together, we often tell stories of our grandmother forcing the four youngest kids to eat oatmeal while giving our oldest sister a hamburger. I do remember being given oatmeal and nothing else to eat, but I don't remember the hamburger. When I get together with my family members, we talk about how great our lives were. In twenty years from now, I imagine when we get together, we will be talking about how great our lives were at the present day today. I seriously think the key to happiness is looking for the positive things in our lives and helping people find the positive things in there lives.
My testimony
I know that God lives. I Know he loves each of us and knows us individually. I know he hears and answers our prayers. I know that Joseph Smith was the Prophet who restored our Gospel. I know President Thomas S Monson is the president today. I know that he, as well as his counselors and Apostles receive revelation. I know that if we are obedient, we will have the oppurtunity to return to God again.
My testimony
I know that God lives. I Know he loves each of us and knows us individually. I know he hears and answers our prayers. I know that Joseph Smith was the Prophet who restored our Gospel. I know President Thomas S Monson is the president today. I know that he, as well as his counselors and Apostles receive revelation. I know that if we are obedient, we will have the oppurtunity to return to God again.
Personal History (my story)
Personal History/ Personal Time line
I was born August 28, 1990 in Federal Way Washington. I’ve lived in Washington my whole life. I do love it here, but I don’t really truly know anything else. The rain is what makes things so green around here. We find ways to make things fun. I spent the majority of my years growing up in the same house old house. I shared a room with my sister until my oldest sister moved out. I lived in that house when I was baptized. That was the first big event in my life. I was baptized in the same stake center that I go to church in now. If I remember correctly, it was September 5th 1998. I remember there was a ward camp out about a week before at this place called ensign ranch. The Bishop jokingly offered to let me get baptized in the river. At the time I turned it down, but now that I think about it, I think it would have been great to have done it that way. I wish I really could have.
Camping is something that I’ve loved since I was a child. It seems that camping was always the vacation that we took when we were kids. I remember this time when one of my siblings left out a bag of circus animal cookies on the ground. Then a squirrel jumped in the bag, stole a cookie, and ran away. It was funny.
My best friend lived just a few houses down from me. Her name was Megan Mayer. We went to the same school and played after school and on the weekends all the time. My favorite thing that we did is when we would walk around our neighborhood and collect frogs. We put them all in a bucket with some water and leaves. We also had this pond at the other end of out neighborhood that was at the bottom of a short hill. In the winter, when it froze over, we would sled down the hill and onto the pond. I remember my siblings being there. I also remember that if the ice was to thin, we would go there every week and throw rocks into the pond so that the water would splash up over the ice and make it thicker.
I also remember this older man that lived kind of by the pond. He would stand out by his fence sometimes. We called him Sarge. He served some time in the military. I remember stopping and talking to him sometimes. He was really nice. Sometimes, the cars would speed by really quickly, he would yell at them to slow down. In our old neighborhood, there were a lot of kids out. He wanted us to be safe.
When I was about twelve years old, I started going to young women’s. This was a big deal to me because my mom had been a young women’s leader for so long. I also had two older sisters who had been in young women’s. They had gone to mutual activities and youth dances. I was looking forward to going to do the things that they did. Most importantly this was the first time that I got to the temple to do baptisms for the dead. It was a spectacular experience, one that I will always cherish.
We moved to our new house when I was thirteen years old. This is where we live now. It turns out this is the best move we could have made. We live in the crestwood ward of the kent stake. It has become my extended family. It’s hard to leave the ward when I leave for school. Moving to this ward helped me be able to meet my best friend. I grew spiritually and emotionally so much. This ward is my family. They are my friends, they care about me so much. Our love for eachother is never ending.
The move also meant new schools. My parents sent me to a new middle school half way through my eighth grade year. It was strange. All the hallways were outside, and they wouldn’t let students bring their backpacks to class. Thankfully though, in my English class, the person who is now my best friend was there to look out for me. I had met her a few weeks ago during a ward basketball game. She went to the teacher and asked if I could come sit at her table. The teacher said no unfortunately. It was still so nice to have a friend so quickly. I remember talking to her after school. She introduced me to Blake Faulkner. He is one of my brother’s best friends.
In my new ward, I’ve had some of my absolute favorite leaders. Other then when my mom was young women’s president, the first person I thought of is Sis. Spackman. She is a little bit of an older lady. My mom was young women’s president at that time. When they called Sis Spackman to be the mia maid teacher, I was a little bit concerned. I wondered how this lady would relate to us. One of the first things she did though, is came and talked to each one of us girls individually and brought us a gift bag. She became so important to us. I love her and will always have a special place in my heart for her.
Another leader I thought of and still keep in contact with is Sis. Startin. She is so much fun. All of us absolutely adored her. I remember her giving Christine, Mckenna, and myself a ride home. We didn’t want to get out of the car. She made a wrong turn. So we started telling her the wrong way to go so that we could stay in the car longer. We also had Chinese fire drills (which is when everyone gets out of the car and runs around it in a circle. McKenna dove into the seat. We’ll always remember that.
The other leader that I’ve thought of is Sis. Nadeau. She was a young women’s president while we were laurels. She took time to talk to us and have fun with us.
I received my GED in August of 2008 just before my 18th birthday. Then I got a job at the mall at a children’s store called “The Children’s Place”. I strongly disliked it. I think there were only two guys in the whole store, the rest of the workers were all girls. I mostly hated working at the register. There was one day when there was this lady who seemed to not understand a lot of English. One of the other employees were frustrated with her and left. I went over and offered to help her. She asked a lot of questions over and over again. The same exact questions… It was difficult to be patient, but at that point, I just wanted to stay away from the register.
During the Winter Semester of 2009, I got accepted into BYU Idaho. It was so exciting. My Mom and I didn’t think I would get in. I almost cried. I struggled so much in high school that I didn’t think I would get into college. I thought I would have to go to the local community college, which I didn’t want to. A lot of the students smoked and drank. The teachers didn’t care as much.
I was at BYU Idaho for a year, and then stayed home for two semesters. During that time, I went to the community college. A lot of students smoked and drank. Even some of the teachers smelled of smoke. Some of the people were really nice though. I had a pottery class at school that I really liked. The teachers were very nice and I enjoyed making things. It was so great to have a new skill.
During the time I was home, I also met Bro. Holliday. He was an institute teacher on campus. I had heard lots about him from my older brothers. He gave us new insights that I had never before seen. After winter semester, I got Hannah to go out to institute with me on Wednesday nights. Then she got her sisters to come as well. Bro. Holliday holds a special place in our hearts.
Now, here I am at BYU Idaho until next summer when I will go on a mission. My testimony has grown and I’ve felt so much more spiritual. I love going to devotionals. I get to sit with my friends that share the same beliefs and standards that I do. The speakers are so wonderful. I feel blessed to be at the Lord’s university.
I was born August 28, 1990 in Federal Way Washington. I’ve lived in Washington my whole life. I do love it here, but I don’t really truly know anything else. The rain is what makes things so green around here. We find ways to make things fun. I spent the majority of my years growing up in the same house old house. I shared a room with my sister until my oldest sister moved out. I lived in that house when I was baptized. That was the first big event in my life. I was baptized in the same stake center that I go to church in now. If I remember correctly, it was September 5th 1998. I remember there was a ward camp out about a week before at this place called ensign ranch. The Bishop jokingly offered to let me get baptized in the river. At the time I turned it down, but now that I think about it, I think it would have been great to have done it that way. I wish I really could have.
Camping is something that I’ve loved since I was a child. It seems that camping was always the vacation that we took when we were kids. I remember this time when one of my siblings left out a bag of circus animal cookies on the ground. Then a squirrel jumped in the bag, stole a cookie, and ran away. It was funny.
My best friend lived just a few houses down from me. Her name was Megan Mayer. We went to the same school and played after school and on the weekends all the time. My favorite thing that we did is when we would walk around our neighborhood and collect frogs. We put them all in a bucket with some water and leaves. We also had this pond at the other end of out neighborhood that was at the bottom of a short hill. In the winter, when it froze over, we would sled down the hill and onto the pond. I remember my siblings being there. I also remember that if the ice was to thin, we would go there every week and throw rocks into the pond so that the water would splash up over the ice and make it thicker.
I also remember this older man that lived kind of by the pond. He would stand out by his fence sometimes. We called him Sarge. He served some time in the military. I remember stopping and talking to him sometimes. He was really nice. Sometimes, the cars would speed by really quickly, he would yell at them to slow down. In our old neighborhood, there were a lot of kids out. He wanted us to be safe.
When I was about twelve years old, I started going to young women’s. This was a big deal to me because my mom had been a young women’s leader for so long. I also had two older sisters who had been in young women’s. They had gone to mutual activities and youth dances. I was looking forward to going to do the things that they did. Most importantly this was the first time that I got to the temple to do baptisms for the dead. It was a spectacular experience, one that I will always cherish.
We moved to our new house when I was thirteen years old. This is where we live now. It turns out this is the best move we could have made. We live in the crestwood ward of the kent stake. It has become my extended family. It’s hard to leave the ward when I leave for school. Moving to this ward helped me be able to meet my best friend. I grew spiritually and emotionally so much. This ward is my family. They are my friends, they care about me so much. Our love for eachother is never ending.
The move also meant new schools. My parents sent me to a new middle school half way through my eighth grade year. It was strange. All the hallways were outside, and they wouldn’t let students bring their backpacks to class. Thankfully though, in my English class, the person who is now my best friend was there to look out for me. I had met her a few weeks ago during a ward basketball game. She went to the teacher and asked if I could come sit at her table. The teacher said no unfortunately. It was still so nice to have a friend so quickly. I remember talking to her after school. She introduced me to Blake Faulkner. He is one of my brother’s best friends.
In my new ward, I’ve had some of my absolute favorite leaders. Other then when my mom was young women’s president, the first person I thought of is Sis. Spackman. She is a little bit of an older lady. My mom was young women’s president at that time. When they called Sis Spackman to be the mia maid teacher, I was a little bit concerned. I wondered how this lady would relate to us. One of the first things she did though, is came and talked to each one of us girls individually and brought us a gift bag. She became so important to us. I love her and will always have a special place in my heart for her.
Another leader I thought of and still keep in contact with is Sis. Startin. She is so much fun. All of us absolutely adored her. I remember her giving Christine, Mckenna, and myself a ride home. We didn’t want to get out of the car. She made a wrong turn. So we started telling her the wrong way to go so that we could stay in the car longer. We also had Chinese fire drills (which is when everyone gets out of the car and runs around it in a circle. McKenna dove into the seat. We’ll always remember that.
The other leader that I’ve thought of is Sis. Nadeau. She was a young women’s president while we were laurels. She took time to talk to us and have fun with us.
I received my GED in August of 2008 just before my 18th birthday. Then I got a job at the mall at a children’s store called “The Children’s Place”. I strongly disliked it. I think there were only two guys in the whole store, the rest of the workers were all girls. I mostly hated working at the register. There was one day when there was this lady who seemed to not understand a lot of English. One of the other employees were frustrated with her and left. I went over and offered to help her. She asked a lot of questions over and over again. The same exact questions… It was difficult to be patient, but at that point, I just wanted to stay away from the register.
During the Winter Semester of 2009, I got accepted into BYU Idaho. It was so exciting. My Mom and I didn’t think I would get in. I almost cried. I struggled so much in high school that I didn’t think I would get into college. I thought I would have to go to the local community college, which I didn’t want to. A lot of the students smoked and drank. The teachers didn’t care as much.
I was at BYU Idaho for a year, and then stayed home for two semesters. During that time, I went to the community college. A lot of students smoked and drank. Even some of the teachers smelled of smoke. Some of the people were really nice though. I had a pottery class at school that I really liked. The teachers were very nice and I enjoyed making things. It was so great to have a new skill.
During the time I was home, I also met Bro. Holliday. He was an institute teacher on campus. I had heard lots about him from my older brothers. He gave us new insights that I had never before seen. After winter semester, I got Hannah to go out to institute with me on Wednesday nights. Then she got her sisters to come as well. Bro. Holliday holds a special place in our hearts.
Now, here I am at BYU Idaho until next summer when I will go on a mission. My testimony has grown and I’ve felt so much more spiritual. I love going to devotionals. I get to sit with my friends that share the same beliefs and standards that I do. The speakers are so wonderful. I feel blessed to be at the Lord’s university.
Ancestral History
My maternal Great Grandfather Keselburg returned from serving in WWI and learned the electrician’s trade. When he was 39 years old he began working as an electrician on the Tacoma Narrows Bridge. He worked on the wiring for the lighting which spanned the 2800 foot bridge. Construction began November 1938 and it opened for traffic Jul 1940. Shortly after opening is was christened “Galloping Gertie” by the people of Tacoma because it swayed and oscillated in the wind. It collapsed in a storm November 7, 1940.
Life Goals
Life Goals
My Life Goals
-A mission
-To be married in the temple
-To have a family
-Own a bakery
Future plans
This coming summer, I have the opportunity to be able to serve a mission. I’m so excited! Most of the time, it feels as if I can’t see past this event in my life. When I come home, I want to finish my education at BYU Idaho and then go to a school close by my home and get a certificate in baking. As for getting married and having a family, I feel as if I can’t plan that. I never know when I will meet my future husband and therefore I can’t plan it.
My Life Goals
-A mission
-To be married in the temple
-To have a family
-Own a bakery
Future plans
This coming summer, I have the opportunity to be able to serve a mission. I’m so excited! Most of the time, it feels as if I can’t see past this event in my life. When I come home, I want to finish my education at BYU Idaho and then go to a school close by my home and get a certificate in baking. As for getting married and having a family, I feel as if I can’t plan that. I never know when I will meet my future husband and therefore I can’t plan it.
Monday, November 1, 2010
The dogs.. (and school)
At home, we have three dogs...
Gizmo:
He's been around for the longest. He's a peekingneese.. or however you spell that. For those of you that don't know what they look like, that means that he has a flat face and big eyes. His nose is kinda pushed up in his face so he snores. It's funny.
Bear:
Rescued from a puppy mill. Those places are awful. That means that he didn't really get any attention or any love. We absolutley love Bear. He is such a sweet dog. He's a shih tzu... i don't know how to spell that either. He's the most lovable of all of our dogs.
Penny:
She's the newest member of the family. Mom and Dad brought her back from Rexburg without telling me. Mom told me to stay awake when they were coming home so that I would help them unpack the truck. Then this golden lab retriever jumped out of the back seat when I came out.
Now my brother and sister have a dog. Her name is Molly. She's a 3 month old boxer. She's a sweetie too but she likes to chew when she plays. I'm sure you can imagine how that'd be problamatic. Molly is coming home with me for thanksgiving. Ruben and Marianne, because they're so wonderful, are going to drive her home for the week. Isn't that wonderful of them?
One of the girls I visit teach is also from Washington. We were talking the other day and decided that the Seattle temple is right between us. About 45 minutes away from each of us. She's getting married there this winter if I remember right.
School is good. Psychology is probably my most challenging class. Currently I have an 83% in the class. The last two tests i've taken, i've finished them with a 70%. Although we have a grading curve... I think my first test turned into a 77% and this one turned into a 78%. This class takes definately takes up most of my time.
I'm definately looking forward to coming home for thanksgiving. It's going to be splendid!
Gizmo:
He's been around for the longest. He's a peekingneese.. or however you spell that. For those of you that don't know what they look like, that means that he has a flat face and big eyes. His nose is kinda pushed up in his face so he snores. It's funny.
Bear:
Rescued from a puppy mill. Those places are awful. That means that he didn't really get any attention or any love. We absolutley love Bear. He is such a sweet dog. He's a shih tzu... i don't know how to spell that either. He's the most lovable of all of our dogs.
Penny:
She's the newest member of the family. Mom and Dad brought her back from Rexburg without telling me. Mom told me to stay awake when they were coming home so that I would help them unpack the truck. Then this golden lab retriever jumped out of the back seat when I came out.
Now my brother and sister have a dog. Her name is Molly. She's a 3 month old boxer. She's a sweetie too but she likes to chew when she plays. I'm sure you can imagine how that'd be problamatic. Molly is coming home with me for thanksgiving. Ruben and Marianne, because they're so wonderful, are going to drive her home for the week. Isn't that wonderful of them?
One of the girls I visit teach is also from Washington. We were talking the other day and decided that the Seattle temple is right between us. About 45 minutes away from each of us. She's getting married there this winter if I remember right.
School is good. Psychology is probably my most challenging class. Currently I have an 83% in the class. The last two tests i've taken, i've finished them with a 70%. Although we have a grading curve... I think my first test turned into a 77% and this one turned into a 78%. This class takes definately takes up most of my time.
I'm definately looking forward to coming home for thanksgiving. It's going to be splendid!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
My view of life
Life is fantastic. That's all there is to it. I was once on a date with a friend, and he asked me what I thought of life. I told him that I think life is worth living. I say live every day to the fullest. Live every day as if it were your last. I regret that I didn't have the oppurtunity to know more about the lives of my family members that have passed away already. Who they are influenced indirectly who I am today. Now that i'm older and appreciate more things, I absolutely love hearing stories from my mother about my grandma. When our family gets together, we often tell stories of our grandmother forcing the four youngest kids to eat oatmeal while giving our oldest sister a hamburger. I do remember being given oatmeal and nothing else to eat, but I don't remember the hamburger. When I get together with my family members, we talk about how great our lives were. In twenty years from now, I imagine when we get together, we will be talking about how great our lives were at the present day today. I seriously think the key to happiness is looking for the positive things in our lives and helping people find the positive things in there lives.
My testimony
I know that God lives. I Know he loves each of us and knows us individually. I know he hears and answers our prayers. I know that Joseph Smith was the Prophet who restored our Gospel. I know President Thomas S Monson is the president today. I know that he, as well as his counselors and Apostles receive revelation. I know that if we are obedient, we will have the oppurtunity to return to God again.
My testimony
I know that God lives. I Know he loves each of us and knows us individually. I know he hears and answers our prayers. I know that Joseph Smith was the Prophet who restored our Gospel. I know President Thomas S Monson is the president today. I know that he, as well as his counselors and Apostles receive revelation. I know that if we are obedient, we will have the oppurtunity to return to God again.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Briefly
Okay it's been a few weeks out here at BYU I. It's been fun. I miss seeing my friends though. I don't see people from home very often. I think i've seen George the most. It's pretty cool to see him and talk to him sometimes. I ran into this guy that just graduated high school. He pointed out that there isn't really anyone else out here thats my age. There older (like George, and the Lofgrans) or younger (like Joseph and Anders). I wish I could see one of my friends more. She's been going out on dates a lot though, so I haven't gotten to see her much. I'm excited for her! It seems like most people are in realtionships here. Me... i'm trying to stay out of one. I'm trying to get away from my old life, and old friends. It's lonely. I really wish that I could go on my mission this year. It'll come soon though!
Everything is going well though. I really enjoy my classes. I have good teachers. I pick up two more classes 2nd block. I'm looking forward to them.
Everything is going well though. I really enjoy my classes. I have good teachers. I pick up two more classes 2nd block. I'm looking forward to them.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
BYU I
I'm back at school. I live in the basement apartment with the bugs in the cold. I'm grateful for a place to live near campus though. It's been a different experience this time. I definately recognize a change in myself. I hope it's good. Things are stressful! Not just school wise, but friends are stressful. More specifically guy friends. Lets not focus on that though. I've got some awesome roommmates. One of them told me that I have enough personality for the entire apartment. Weird huh? I'm still not convinced it's a good thing...
Thursday, September 2, 2010
housing
Okay so I feel like scum now. Finally housing is getting all worked out. I have a place to stay and everything, but unfortunately i left a girl on her own because someone left me on my own. I was distraught.. so i took the first thing i found. The ad said two open spots but by the time I called there was only one open spot. I took it. This girl I left was a returned missionary. She lives in Federal Way and this was her first semester. I was excited about rooming with her. UGH this whole housing fiasco is just a stressful mess. I'm dissapointed
but happy to have housing too
but happy to have housing too
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
dating and courting
Wow summer is coming to a close! I've been home since Christmas and I feel like i've learned a lot. Friends have come and gone... Stefan and Tynja are married. Weird huh? Hannah and Thomas are leaving tomorrow. Today I went to lunch with them and George. It was pretty awesome. We went to Panera down at kent station. Then once we said our goodbyes to Thomas, Hannah and I went to the gluten free bakery off of 256th, i think.. right next to Kent Meridian High School. We ate some chocolate volcano cake and brought back chocolate cake for her family. After the bakery, we went to target and got some white t-shirts for her date tonight. Then we took cake back and hung out at her house. We hung out while she did some more packing and then went and hung out with her sisters.
So George brought up an interesting topic. He basically said that dating should go back to the days of original courting. Around Jane Austen's time. I'm not sure I really understand. I do like the old fashion style of dating where the guy does the asking and paying, that kind of stuff. We also talked about dating at school. Thomas had a good philosophy. If you're not interested in the guy and he asks you out, just say no. I think it's better to say if you think the guy likes you and you're not interested, then just say no.
Alright, so quick update on school. I'm working hard to figure out housing. I guess they still need my endorsement from a member of the stake presidency. I'm struggling though. I feel like I keep making mistakes. It feels like everytime they tell me to do something, I miss out on some piece of information that messes me out. It's pretty stressfull...
Um I turn twenty in four days. That'll be cool I guess. I don't know, it's just a birthday. What do you do?
So George brought up an interesting topic. He basically said that dating should go back to the days of original courting. Around Jane Austen's time. I'm not sure I really understand. I do like the old fashion style of dating where the guy does the asking and paying, that kind of stuff. We also talked about dating at school. Thomas had a good philosophy. If you're not interested in the guy and he asks you out, just say no. I think it's better to say if you think the guy likes you and you're not interested, then just say no.
Alright, so quick update on school. I'm working hard to figure out housing. I guess they still need my endorsement from a member of the stake presidency. I'm struggling though. I feel like I keep making mistakes. It feels like everytime they tell me to do something, I miss out on some piece of information that messes me out. It's pretty stressfull...
Um I turn twenty in four days. That'll be cool I guess. I don't know, it's just a birthday. What do you do?
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
By Small and Simple Things
"Preserve your memories
Seal them up well.
What you forget, you can never retell
But a journal that's kept fresh on the shelf
Will help someone through rough times
maybe even yourself!"
So I found this memory while going through some boxes
Dear Courtney,
Enclosed you will find your Eternal Perspective Certificate and Award. Congratulations! I am proud of YOU.
You will also find enclosed a list of qualities your fellow Mida Maids see in you. I hope you see all those and more when you look at yourself. I know I do when I look at you.
Always remember who you are. You are a daughter of Heavenly Father. He knows and loves you. You, Courtney Lambert, are important to Him. Never forget that.
You are a special, unique, and worthwhile individual. You are special because you are a child of God. You are unique because there is no one in the world exactly like you. You are worthwhile simply because you exist. Alwas see yourself as a daughter of God,
and treat yourself accordingly.
I was thinking as I was typing this letter that this could be a letter from Heavenly Father as well. Insert "You are My daughter. I know and love you. You are imporant to Me. Never Forget that."
This letter may be a small and simple thing to the person who wrote it, but it means so much to me. I'm sure the letters that my fellow mia maids and friends received meant just as much to them.
It's a testimony. I do know that Heavenly Father lives and loves me, but it will always be nice and much appreciated to hear others say it too.
Seal them up well.
What you forget, you can never retell
But a journal that's kept fresh on the shelf
Will help someone through rough times
maybe even yourself!"
So I found this memory while going through some boxes
Dear Courtney,
Enclosed you will find your Eternal Perspective Certificate and Award. Congratulations! I am proud of YOU.
You will also find enclosed a list of qualities your fellow Mida Maids see in you. I hope you see all those and more when you look at yourself. I know I do when I look at you.
Always remember who you are. You are a daughter of Heavenly Father. He knows and loves you. You, Courtney Lambert, are important to Him. Never forget that.
You are a special, unique, and worthwhile individual. You are special because you are a child of God. You are unique because there is no one in the world exactly like you. You are worthwhile simply because you exist. Alwas see yourself as a daughter of God,
and treat yourself accordingly.
I was thinking as I was typing this letter that this could be a letter from Heavenly Father as well. Insert "You are My daughter. I know and love you. You are imporant to Me. Never Forget that."
This letter may be a small and simple thing to the person who wrote it, but it means so much to me. I'm sure the letters that my fellow mia maids and friends received meant just as much to them.
It's a testimony. I do know that Heavenly Father lives and loves me, but it will always be nice and much appreciated to hear others say it too.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
stawberry lemonade
When Life throws you lemons, make lemonade. A common phrase that most people have heard. I once heard that the lemonade won't taste good without sugar.
Things have been difficult lately. I haven't seen my sister since Christmas. My best friend and I haven't been close since he got back to Washington. Another friend is getting married so I won't get to see him much anymore. Another friend doesn't talk to me much since his girlfriend came around. My financial situation is not doing so well... my mom told me if I don't get financial aid for this fall, I can't go. She refuses to discuss any other option with me until we find out if i get financial aid. This is all stressful....
Here's the sugar to add to the lemons! My neice and nephew are wonderful. My best friend and I are still friends. My friend that is getting married has an amazing fiance. She's been staying with me for the past few months and I've really come to love her. Admissions let me back to school! Not to mention I don't have to go green river anymore! I'm dying to go back to BYU I.. I miss being there. As for my friend that doens't really talk to me anymore, I don't think that I really care.
This is definately one of those tough times in life for me, but I know it will be okay. It's going to take some time though. Some days are harder then others, like when someone I don't know makes fun of me and emberasses me but there's nothing i can do about it. I read this article, and in it there was a story where a woman said that feeling peace was a miracle. At least that's how I interpreted it anyways. Things will be okay. I can't see how, but i know they will be :)
Things have been difficult lately. I haven't seen my sister since Christmas. My best friend and I haven't been close since he got back to Washington. Another friend is getting married so I won't get to see him much anymore. Another friend doesn't talk to me much since his girlfriend came around. My financial situation is not doing so well... my mom told me if I don't get financial aid for this fall, I can't go. She refuses to discuss any other option with me until we find out if i get financial aid. This is all stressful....
Here's the sugar to add to the lemons! My neice and nephew are wonderful. My best friend and I are still friends. My friend that is getting married has an amazing fiance. She's been staying with me for the past few months and I've really come to love her. Admissions let me back to school! Not to mention I don't have to go green river anymore! I'm dying to go back to BYU I.. I miss being there. As for my friend that doens't really talk to me anymore, I don't think that I really care.
This is definately one of those tough times in life for me, but I know it will be okay. It's going to take some time though. Some days are harder then others, like when someone I don't know makes fun of me and emberasses me but there's nothing i can do about it. I read this article, and in it there was a story where a woman said that feeling peace was a miracle. At least that's how I interpreted it anyways. Things will be okay. I can't see how, but i know they will be :)
Saturday, July 24, 2010
You'll think of me
... Long story short I know a guy who's family told a new friend of mine something along the lines of "you have to understand, she used to have a huge crush on him." (she meaning me) Then they listed off a bunch of stuff that I did that makes them so sure that they're right First of all, why does that matter? Second those things that I did that they re probably thinking of are things that I would have done for anyone. For example, dropping cookies off on a door step... I did that for girls in young womens, for leaders. Another example, going to build a bear, I would do that for any friend that is important to me. If youre always going to remember me as the girl that had a "big crush" on a guy, then i'm not going to hang around. I'm a strong person who's pretty determined 85% of the time. I deserve to be remembered for that. It only gets worse. My new friend said something about how I don't like the guy anymore. There words were along the lines of "Oh I don't know....". I can think of one other thing that i've done almost a year ago that would lead someone to think that I had feelings for someone. GUESS WHAT! It wasn't for him, it was because I needed my best friend who I have not found. I've been treated like dirt from this guy and his family has the nerve to think that I still like him. That's ridiculous.
I know it seems like I'm mad now, but i'm not. My feelings are very hurt because people that I cared about were talking about me not in a good way behind my back.
Okay I just needed to spill that out. My child development teacher said its not good to go to bed when something is bothering you, so you should write it down or talk to someone about it. Speaking of teachers, I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL!!!. WOOOH BYU I here I come!. ( as long as I can get financial aid :/ ) I'm pretty excited, but also stressed. All the sudden I need money... I know I really needed to focus at Green River, but I wish I would have had a way to make good money beacause now i'm stressed... but it's for a good reason :)
In the mean time, i've started going to singles ward a little more. I'm still a little bit hesitant, because new things are intimidating, but it's kind of fun. Like a scary ride at a roller coaster... while you're on you're scared, but when you get off you think "that was fun"
I know it seems like I'm mad now, but i'm not. My feelings are very hurt because people that I cared about were talking about me not in a good way behind my back.
Okay I just needed to spill that out. My child development teacher said its not good to go to bed when something is bothering you, so you should write it down or talk to someone about it. Speaking of teachers, I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL!!!. WOOOH BYU I here I come!. ( as long as I can get financial aid :/ ) I'm pretty excited, but also stressed. All the sudden I need money... I know I really needed to focus at Green River, but I wish I would have had a way to make good money beacause now i'm stressed... but it's for a good reason :)
In the mean time, i've started going to singles ward a little more. I'm still a little bit hesitant, because new things are intimidating, but it's kind of fun. Like a scary ride at a roller coaster... while you're on you're scared, but when you get off you think "that was fun"
Friday, June 11, 2010
Keep Holding On
Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been busy going to greenriver. Even though I hate the school, it's been a good experience. Now I know that I can survive in the world.. At the beginning of the quarter I wasn't so sure. I learned a lot at greenriver though. My grades aren't where I would like them to be, but that's because of minor mistakes I made like forgetting an assignment at home or not reading the directions carefully. I really liked what I learned. I like what I accomplished here. Just today, I played in a piano recital! Crazy huh!? Yes I was nervous, but I actually did it. The thing that got me to do it is when I asked myself if I would let this be the thing that keeps me out of BYU I. I think that's how it works in the church too, when you're keeping commandments. Ask yourself, "will this be something that keeps me out of the celestial kingdom?".
Okay so i went to Rexburg for the memorial weekend with my parents. It was not at all what I expected. A lot of my friends were out of town unfortunately. One of my friends drove up from Idaho Falls though, i thought that was sweet. It was good to see him and feel important enough for him to drive up to see me. I spent a lot of time with my family while I was there. I also got some answers that I needed. For example, just because i'm not someone's best friend anymore, it doesn't change that i'm still important to them, just as they are to me. I also met this guy that I've talked to a bunch of times that i've never actually met. That was interesting. I'm glad that while I was there, I got to spend time with one of my best friends since I was 16 years old. His friends that he's made there are way awesome. He's well taken care of.
Speaking of Rexburg, I've hit another road block. I have to earn another half of a credit this summer, otherwise I won't be able to go back to school there this fall. Another option would be to go to LDSBC until I leave for my mission.
Hmmmm I wonder what will happen
Okay so i went to Rexburg for the memorial weekend with my parents. It was not at all what I expected. A lot of my friends were out of town unfortunately. One of my friends drove up from Idaho Falls though, i thought that was sweet. It was good to see him and feel important enough for him to drive up to see me. I spent a lot of time with my family while I was there. I also got some answers that I needed. For example, just because i'm not someone's best friend anymore, it doesn't change that i'm still important to them, just as they are to me. I also met this guy that I've talked to a bunch of times that i've never actually met. That was interesting. I'm glad that while I was there, I got to spend time with one of my best friends since I was 16 years old. His friends that he's made there are way awesome. He's well taken care of.
Speaking of Rexburg, I've hit another road block. I have to earn another half of a credit this summer, otherwise I won't be able to go back to school there this fall. Another option would be to go to LDSBC until I leave for my mission.
Hmmmm I wonder what will happen
Friday, April 2, 2010
Dear BYU Idaho
Lol.. this is the first time in awhile that I haven't used a song title or lyrics.. anywho
So today my friend asked me what was on my mind. As of right now, school is on my mind. I'm currently attending Greenriver community College. I really like having something to do. I like learning and exploring what I want to do. I learned that I like history. I'm taking this class that covers from 1945 up. I hate the way it's presented... my teacher just stands up there and talks. I know i'm in college, but I would enjoy being able to get involved with what i'm learning. I'm also taking a child development class which has some potential to be a really great class. As of right now, everything is being presented on slides.
Okay so here's the thing, I hate being on campus. There are days where I feel like i'm going to die from second hand smoke. I would be really interested in seeing the percentage of the students 30 years from now who have lung cancer or some other sort of smoking related problem. People walk around in torn up clothes, with stains or they walk around in their sweats.
I've never had so much appreciation for the dress code at BYU Idaho. It's such a good feeling to be around that. I have seriously gone from an extreme spiritual high down to that low...
Okay i'm exhausted. I need to go to bed so i can think clearly
So today my friend asked me what was on my mind. As of right now, school is on my mind. I'm currently attending Greenriver community College. I really like having something to do. I like learning and exploring what I want to do. I learned that I like history. I'm taking this class that covers from 1945 up. I hate the way it's presented... my teacher just stands up there and talks. I know i'm in college, but I would enjoy being able to get involved with what i'm learning. I'm also taking a child development class which has some potential to be a really great class. As of right now, everything is being presented on slides.
Okay so here's the thing, I hate being on campus. There are days where I feel like i'm going to die from second hand smoke. I would be really interested in seeing the percentage of the students 30 years from now who have lung cancer or some other sort of smoking related problem. People walk around in torn up clothes, with stains or they walk around in their sweats.
I've never had so much appreciation for the dress code at BYU Idaho. It's such a good feeling to be around that. I have seriously gone from an extreme spiritual high down to that low...
Okay i'm exhausted. I need to go to bed so i can think clearly
Saturday, March 27, 2010
What a Wonderful World
Just read my last post....
So to keep it short and simple... the guy decided that we weren't good enough friends first... so now we're just friends. I miss him. He was my friend, and I could have been my best friend. It's been hard because i've wanted to call him a few times, and tell him about things that happened. It's been challenging because I miss my friend.
I start school on Monday! I have mixed feelings. I'm trying to be excited, but it's hard not being at BYU I. I'm looking forward to having something to do, and to exploring different classes, but I miss Rexburg. It really is amazing out there. It's really gAreat here too, it's just a different kind. I definately would have a harder time if it wasn't for Annelise and Christine. I really love them.
Okay off for now
So to keep it short and simple... the guy decided that we weren't good enough friends first... so now we're just friends. I miss him. He was my friend, and I could have been my best friend. It's been hard because i've wanted to call him a few times, and tell him about things that happened. It's been challenging because I miss my friend.
I start school on Monday! I have mixed feelings. I'm trying to be excited, but it's hard not being at BYU I. I'm looking forward to having something to do, and to exploring different classes, but I miss Rexburg. It really is amazing out there. It's really gAreat here too, it's just a different kind. I definately would have a harder time if it wasn't for Annelise and Christine. I really love them.
Okay off for now
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Viva La Vida
Exciting things keep happening and coming up in my life. First I got to go visit Rexburg at the end of January with my friend Galina. Some things I settled while others I left even more confusing then ever, but that's life. Good thing I get to go visit again to see Audrey sing with the symphony.
This past weekend has been a lot of fun. On Thursday, Christine, Malachi (her nephew) and I went and played at the mall and then came and played at home. theres pictures of a photo strip we took while there on my facebook page. When we were at home, we finger painted some awesome pictures... which inspired the rest of our weekend. We took an old bed sheet with a stain on it and decided to paint the picture from the mario game on it. It's been great fun... but we're not done yet. I have blue pain on my elbows from painting the sky. I thought it would have came off in the shower but I guess not all of it did. Anyone who reads this that knows me well knows I enjoy the creative projects.
So coming up I have some fun things too. Today I got asked if I would be a nursery worker in the family ward. I'm excited and scared for it. I love kids! They are great fun. I guess i'll be set apart in 3 weeks though because next week is stake conference, and then i'll be in Rexburg again.
On Tuesday I'm suppose to get a new computer! Hooray!!! Not that i'm not extremely grateful for mine, it's just that it's getting old, and I didn't get to choose this one, it was just given to me. The speakers are starting to go bad and it's slowing down a bit.
Sometime this week, hopefully i'll get to register to start classes at Greenriver. To be honest, I sort of have to force my excitement for that. It's really really hard to come from the spiritual high of BYU Idaho back to Greenriver Community College. It's such a different feeling.
As for the guy that I've previously mentioned, things have moved along nicely. All i'm going to say is that he is really great.
Alright off to take a nap... gotta rest up from my crazy weekend ;)
This past weekend has been a lot of fun. On Thursday, Christine, Malachi (her nephew) and I went and played at the mall and then came and played at home. theres pictures of a photo strip we took while there on my facebook page. When we were at home, we finger painted some awesome pictures... which inspired the rest of our weekend. We took an old bed sheet with a stain on it and decided to paint the picture from the mario game on it. It's been great fun... but we're not done yet. I have blue pain on my elbows from painting the sky. I thought it would have came off in the shower but I guess not all of it did. Anyone who reads this that knows me well knows I enjoy the creative projects.
So coming up I have some fun things too. Today I got asked if I would be a nursery worker in the family ward. I'm excited and scared for it. I love kids! They are great fun. I guess i'll be set apart in 3 weeks though because next week is stake conference, and then i'll be in Rexburg again.
On Tuesday I'm suppose to get a new computer! Hooray!!! Not that i'm not extremely grateful for mine, it's just that it's getting old, and I didn't get to choose this one, it was just given to me. The speakers are starting to go bad and it's slowing down a bit.
Sometime this week, hopefully i'll get to register to start classes at Greenriver. To be honest, I sort of have to force my excitement for that. It's really really hard to come from the spiritual high of BYU Idaho back to Greenriver Community College. It's such a different feeling.
As for the guy that I've previously mentioned, things have moved along nicely. All i'm going to say is that he is really great.
Alright off to take a nap... gotta rest up from my crazy weekend ;)
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Walking on Sunshine
So many decisions to make. I've been home for about a month now. It's crazy to think about. I'm going to visit Rexburg in two weeks. I'm extrememly excited. I might go in March too because Audrey won this singing competition and now she is singing with the Idaho state symphony. That's awesome! Congrats sister!! Yeah so i'm home just thinking a lot. I've been spending time painting my room and while it's not normally something I would pick to do, I love it. It has splatters on two walls and the other two are this bright pink that could be described as salmon colored. Crazy. So back to these decisions. I'm going to be home for awhile. I know I won't be in Idaho over spring semester which is okay. I'll be here going to Greenriver Community College. Now the decisions go back to do I want to go on a mission or am i suppose to get married? What should i major in? Where should I be looking for jobs?
Not to mention, it's hard to be home. I love mom and dad so much, but the house is so different. It doesn't feel like home for personal reasons that i would be willing to share in person but not on the internet.
Anyways, I know it's relatively short, but I need to help Christine tomorrow morning so I best be going.
over and out
-Courtney
Not to mention, it's hard to be home. I love mom and dad so much, but the house is so different. It doesn't feel like home for personal reasons that i would be willing to share in person but not on the internet.
Anyways, I know it's relatively short, but I need to help Christine tomorrow morning so I best be going.
over and out
-Courtney
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