Couldn't sleep... might be a bit random

I promise I will be better at blogging. It's been a crazy 2nd semester out here at school. It's kind of like everything I thought...isn't. I find that when trials come upon me, its best to turn to old friends. I love my new friends, the ones i've met last semester and this one, but they dont' really know me that well. I suppose thats my fault. It's hard though, because one of the people I let in the most also hurt me the most. The closer someone gets to you, the more power they have. Then theres me being on academic probation, that sucks. I'm so scared I won't get to come back to school, because I love being here and learning. Then theres the part of me that is really looking forward to spending time at hometoo. I miss my nephew and neice a lot. I feel the most grounded there, not wrapped up in this BYU Idaho scene. I still love being out here, and i'm really learning a lot not just in the class room, but in other ways too. I know this is random, but theres so much going through my head, and I can't sleep at the current moment anyways so I thought I'd start blogging... yeah.
I should really try to get back to sleep.