My Condensed slap in the face...

Okay so I was sitting in my Book of Mormon class today. Bro. Christensen is my teacher and he is awesome!. Anyways today he was talking about the gift of discernment today and how powerful it is, and I was like "woah" because I have that gift too. I don't think I ever fully understood what it meant though. I'm sure a lot of people have it, but I want to use it as much as I can in my life. I want to help people, I just don't know how... Any suggestions?

I'll still look at you like the stars that shine....

So theres a few people where we can be flirtacious and silly and I know it means nothing, but as for everyone else, I have absolutely no idea whats going on. Sigh. I would love to give details, but I never know whos actually reading this. I don't know, I love hanging around guys. I've learned so much from hanging around the guys, i'm just used to being looked at like "one of the guys" ya know? Haha I remember this time I was the only girl in the car, and all the guys saw this girl walking on the street and they started talking about how she was attractive. I believe the word they used was "hot". Yeah I'm glad they all feel comfortable around me... lol

Count Your blessings name them one by one...

Okay first....
I've never truly understood what it mean to mourn with those that mourn and comfort those that stand in need of comfort until now. Yes i've always tried to be the the best friend to people that I could be, but I've only been okay at the comforting. I can't go into details, but a dear friend of mine lost a part of her family. I stayed up late with her for awhile just crying with her. I know everythings going to be okay, but thats not the point. Ya know, i've had a hard time this semester, but there are people going through a lot worse things then I am. One of my dear friends is having back problems and theres a small chance she will have to have surgery. I just wish I could be there, and see shes okay with my own eyes. I know she is though... It's tough being here at school when so much is going on at home. Both exciting and sad. My best friend comes home from his mission in less then a week, and i'm not going to be there. My neice and nephew are at home. My nephew is starting to learn how to say my name. How awesome is that?!
The friends I used to spend so much time with here are all pairing off... and I'm..... not. lol but I guess i'm used to that. I know everythings going to be okay, I don't want anyone to think i'm really upset or anything. Sometimes its just nice to say whats on your mind. I've been blessed in so many ways out here, I just worry a lot about whats going on. I'm blessed to have my brother and sister in law out here with me. I'm blessed with awesome roommates. The cool thing about that is we were talking a few days ago, and all of us were praying over the summer for good roommates. I really love those girls. I'm blessed with great teachers. One of my teachers is absolutely insane. The other day he jumped up on a desk screaming. It was awesome!
So I have this calling in relief society. I'm the compassionate service leader. I guess at home, theres more to do, but here at school, it pretty much means I get to be everyones friend. Isn't that awesome! I'm excited for it but also nervous I won't do a good job. I think this calling is probably one of the biggest blessings this semester. I'm excited for it.

Dance dance

Okay so when I first got here to school, I was rooming with Marianne right. We lived in a pretty bad apartment with electrical problems and some gross plumbing problems and three girls in one small room. It was awesome, but i don't think i'll ever do that again. I hope Marianne and I get a chance to room together again. So I first got here my first semester, and I think it was a day before classes start, I came out into the living room and Marianne was on the phone. I asked her who she was talking to and she said Daniel, and if I remember right, I kind of chuckled and told her to tell him hi for me. See I heard of Daniel all the way back in Washington from the previous fall. So while on the phone, I get told that I should accept Daniel's friend request... i'm just thinking... ummm okay i haven't even met this guy yet. So Daniel hung around the apartment and did our dishes and worked on the rubicks cube with Marianne... then the two of them decided they were going to try to get me to go dancing. Weird! I heard about swing and I thought thatd be cool, but then they showed me Lindy Swing... and I just thoguht it looked like a bunch of circles. Ballroom was cool though. The problem is, when youre first learning how to do it, they only teach one or two dances in a night, and so I didn't know the majority of the dances, but once you catch on, its a lot of fun. I'm still not the best by far, but I want to keep practicing. I should take some more classes! It would be amazing! It would be even more awesome if I had a dance partner though. Daniel is a good guy to dance with, but he knows so many girls that are really good at dancing, so Its not like I can ask him all the time ya know? yeah...
so I went swing dancing with my brother Chris the other day, it was awesome. We were laughing so much and I kept messing up and it was funny. We did some crazy west coast stuff... Chris is awesome.
So in conclusion, dancing is fun and you should do it...

Couldn't sleep... might be a bit random

I promise I will be better at blogging. It's been a crazy 2nd semester out here at school. It's kind of like everything I thought...isn't. I find that when trials come upon me, its best to turn to old friends. I love my new friends, the ones i've met last semester and this one, but they dont' really know me that well. I suppose thats my fault. It's hard though, because one of the people I let in the most also hurt me the most. The closer someone gets to you, the more power they have. Then theres me being on academic probation, that sucks. I'm so scared I won't get to come back to school, because I love being here and learning. Then theres the part of me that is really looking forward to spending time at hometoo. I miss my nephew and neice a lot. I feel the most grounded there, not wrapped up in this BYU Idaho scene. I still love being out here, and i'm really learning a lot not just in the class room, but in other ways too. I know this is random, but theres so much going through my head, and I can't sleep at the current moment anyways so I thought I'd start blogging... yeah.
I should really try to get back to sleep.