... Long story short I know a guy who's family told a new friend of mine something along the lines of "you have to understand, she used to have a huge crush on him." (she meaning me) Then they listed off a bunch of stuff that I did that makes them so sure that they're right First of all, why does that matter? Second those things that I did that they re probably thinking of are things that I would have done for anyone. For example, dropping cookies off on a door step... I did that for girls in young womens, for leaders. Another example, going to build a bear, I would do that for any friend that is important to me. If youre always going to remember me as the girl that had a "big crush" on a guy, then i'm not going to hang around. I'm a strong person who's pretty determined 85% of the time. I deserve to be remembered for that. It only gets worse. My new friend said something about how I don't like the guy anymore. There words were along the lines of "Oh I don't know....". I can think of one other thing that i've done almost a year ago that would lead someone to think that I had feelings for someone. GUESS WHAT! It wasn't for him, it was because I needed my best friend who I have not found. I've been treated like dirt from this guy and his family has the nerve to think that I still like him. That's ridiculous.
I know it seems like I'm mad now, but i'm not. My feelings are very hurt because people that I cared about were talking about me not in a good way behind my back.
Okay I just needed to spill that out. My child development teacher said its not good to go to bed when something is bothering you, so you should write it down or talk to someone about it. Speaking of teachers, I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL!!!. WOOOH BYU I here I come!. ( as long as I can get financial aid :/ ) I'm pretty excited, but also stressed. All the sudden I need money... I know I really needed to focus at Green River, but I wish I would have had a way to make good money beacause now i'm stressed... but it's for a good reason :)
In the mean time, i've started going to singles ward a little more. I'm still a little bit hesitant, because new things are intimidating, but it's kind of fun. Like a scary ride at a roller coaster... while you're on you're scared, but when you get off you think "that was fun"
